........What can one say about life? It was given to you and it can just as easily be taken away. I guess I really never thought about death in such a way before. I have always known that in a moment's notice I could no longer walk among the living; but I guess it never truly acurred to me. Until yesterday. Yesterday (3/8/08) as we were all on our way to a fun saturday, in a second, it all turned to a unforgetable disaster. My best friend in the driver's seat, me riding shotgun, my sister and other best friend (best friend's twin sister) in the middle row and my brother in the last. We were all just enjoying the excitement that was waiting for us at the con, when out of the blue, the car ahead of us halted to a stop. My friend slambed the breaks. For me, it was like slow motion. As I turned to face the windshield, I spotted the white car for a second before our's hit theirs. There was an awful sound of metal crushing metal, screams of surprise, and gasps of shock, as we all flew forward, thankfully only inches due to our seatbelts. More thankfully since my brother only put his on minuets before. As I sat in shock, my friend yelled at us to get out of the car as she ran toward the car she hit. An arguement erupted on whose fault it was. To me, my concern was not of the car we hit but making sure if we were fine. My other friend collapsed into my brother's arms as he staggered to stay on his feet. I helped him carry her to the seat, but noticed the flames had erupted from the engine. My heart droped and I told him to help me carry her away. Thankfully a passer by called the police, since no one amongst us was concerned about that. Once my friend ran from the argument, fights exploded from within our group. Still concered for my past-out friend, my brother, my sister, the flaming car, I tried to confort my screaming friend with no success. Thankfully, the flames died away and my friend regained conciousness. My brother stayed by her side, my sister quiet but uninjured. My head throbbed painfully for I bit my teeth hard as we crashed, but I igorned it, the pain was the last of my concern. My best friend was yelling at all of us, blaming us, for talking to her and distracing her. Though all I did was try to get her to calm down, realising that blaming a friend was not going to change what happened. I was yelled at, yet I tried to talk calmly to her. The police showed up and things sped by. The amublence came and took my friend and brother. All I could do was try to calm the other. It took a very long time. Once everything was delt with, and my other friend was better from the faint, we returned to my house. I tried to comfort them both. In the very end, hours later, I thought my relaionship with my best friend had finished because no matter what I told her, she kept yelling, blaming others. Finally I rose my voice to her and told her I didn't want to hear it anymore and went to comfort her sister (whom she put down horribly), leaving her stranded. I don't know if I did right leaving her, but it felt wrong sitting there and taking all of the stuff she was saying. We haven't really spoken for sometime for I spent most of my time with her sister. Which I didn't mind, since our bond has only grown today, but I fear mine with my best friend might have broken or atleast worn down.........

.........*sighs very deeply with tears in eyes* I don't want to lose my best friend over this.....I have lost so many friends already. Was I wrong to have left her and gone to help her sister? I didn't want to choose between them since I love them so very much, but after my best friend freaked and yelled, and her sister went running to my room crying, I guess that was the last straw. Was I wrong to have done so? I apologised for raising my voice, but she had yelled at me so many times today.......I don't know what to do......she was just nervous......as us all.......I'm sorry......